Federica wrote: ↑Sat Jan 04, 2025 5:10 pm
But I see why you suggest it first, and so trying the “I am” exercise versus the wordless I-ness-thought, I can’t easily decide which one feels more “intimate”. The worded thought, on the one hand, feels more outer, more Earthly, more familiar, more grounded, more anchored to senses. In this sense, I may say it feels more intimate. The wordless thought on the other hand, feels more inner, more direct, more pure, more honest.
What feels intimate is not the sound of the word itself (in the sense that we may feel intimacy or familiarity with an object or a person) but the fact that our inner being is more
exposed to itself, so to speak, when it recognizes itself in the voice. Of course, here we are speaking of
ordinary consciousness. As explained, in Imagination and above, the spirit expresses in much more manifold ways.
Federica wrote: ↑Sat Jan 04, 2025 5:10 pm
Yes, we feel we were muted, because it costs effort to refrain from verbalization. We are so used to it. I think this is the reason why it feels like a part of us has been muted. And, as a matter of fact, it has been muted. That is, the collapse of that function has been resisted. I wouldn’t necessarily translate that in terms of something of our I-ness remaining unknown. If so, wouldn't we have to also think of any act of spiritual resistance as something of our "I" remaining unknown, since resisting a collapse of potential always implies muting some materialization of phenomena pressing from the soul background?
It is a different kind of resisting. The point of meditative resistance is not to paralyze and mute our spirit. What we resist are the forces that drag the spirit through the grooves of necessity. This comes through concentration and as explained many times, by 'shrinking', becoming 'smaller' than these forces (remember the gown and the twigs). Then we find a new kind of wiggle room in this point of concentration which exposes unfamiliar degrees of freedom of our "I"-force, which interestingly can fill the whole of inner space yet somehow pass through the 'twigs'.
Federica wrote: ↑Sat Jan 04, 2025 5:10 pm
To summarize, my open questions are:
1. How do you fit Steiners idea that the dynamic, wordless, visual form of the "Ich"-thought grows directly out of the meaning that can be expressed in the word-symbol.
As said, the "I"-force of the spirit that expresses itself is always the primary goal. Both the words and the eurhythmic gestures are such expressions. Steiner explains in HTHW how in the course of development, our center of being moves down toward the heart center. I tried to depict this before:
Now, it should be clear that the inner experience that we can try to convey in this schematic way and further triangulate with words, cannot be found as contained in the words. But it cannot be contained in such an image either. In the heart region we approach the activity of the Spirit Self, which acts by bending the flow of destiny. In our everyday life we need to decide how to move an object, or how to do something in order to achieve some goal, while from within the heart world, the Spirit Self pictures how our whole soul life should transform for certain higher goals to be achieved. Instead of moving a hand or a leg, it is as if it says "Here we need a little more Mercury forces, here we should diminish the Mars forces, etc." Of course, this is not in the least some mechanical adjustment but all these intentions are like subtle shifts of the Ls which draw a new fractal tunnel of destiny, within which our ordinary consciousness condenses (of course there are also other bendings that counteract those of the higher self and the angelic beings, and our "I" my snap into their grooves). Anyway... my point is that obviously when we experience Imaginatively such things as those just described, we are clearly beyond verbalization. We are beyond mere pictures of sensory happenings too. We live in expanded intuition about this deeper flow, yet to convey anything of it we need to sieve it down into concrete pictures. And clearly, word-pictures (we can call them that) offer great flexibility. I don't think I could convey what I just wrote entirely in a slideshow of visual pictures. Maybe we can do that if we already have some shared understanding of the deeper meaning of the pictures but then it will gradually become precisely a written pictographic language.
Federica wrote: ↑Sat Jan 04, 2025 5:10 pm
2. Do you agree on what I have described as the double nature of language, and that what you have shared here addresses its vibrational nature, its sound and tone nature - not its combinatory, potentially problematic, worded nature (and surely problematic in our times)?
Like, Ashvin, I'm not entirely sure why you try to separate language on such an orthogonal basis. In the way you describe it, it sounds as if as soon as we form a sentence, we drop down in the realm of combinatorics - horizontal, mechanical patching of words. But this is not so. Not only the sounds condense from the higher meaningful spiritual activity. Grammar originally condenses from higher-order dynamics, just like the formative forces of our bodies. For example, it would be combinatory if someone takes the picture above and says (like the bees example to FB) "Oh, I get this, I'll put a few more spheres here, here, and here, and get an even prettier picture." These abstract combinatorics are certainly a threat, but as established before, and as seen even from this example, we can lay down wordless pictures in an equally abstract and combinatory way.
So there's no argument that language and pictures, like for example the spheres above, should grow out of deeper meaning. Conversely, brooding over such images and words should lead toward that deeper meaning. However, language is no mere combinatorics on the physical plane. Language (at least originally) grows directly from the dynamics of the etheric (life) world. And as such, its redemption is not simply overcoming the usage of words but expanding consciousness in the formative forces that originally gave the structure of language and grammar. And yes, at that Imaginative level, these forces are known in much more manifold ways. Nevertheless, we still need to retrace language into its higher origins.
Here's a topic for meditation: in a certain sense, we can think of the origin of language as the way the formative processes in the etheric realm 'sound like' when we experience their effects in the tone ether. This in a way explains why language seems to be so complex even in the ancient literature. It's because language did not arise by distilling a few basic grunts and then gradually combining them into more complicated grammatical and phonetic relations. Instead, language appears directly as something complex, simply because it originally reflects the already complex processes in the whole etheric realm. The experience of a growing plant from within the formative spiritual gestures, when followed in tone, already 'sound like' a complex sentence with many words and complicated grammatic relations (which directly reflect the relations of the formative forces). Does this help? Thinking of original language not as abstract mapping that combines deadened tokens grown from living experience, but as growing from what the amazingly complex life-world 'sounds like' from within?
Federica wrote: ↑Sat Jan 04, 2025 5:10 pm
3. How do you connect your last experiments with the past ones?
I'm not sure about this question but I hope all the above is enough for now.